| (S 1) | ||
| At first to her beneath the sapphire heavens | ||
| The sylvan solitude was a gorgeous dream, | ||
| An altar of the summer’s splendour and fire, | ||
| 115 | A sky-topped flower-hung palace of the gods | |
| And all its scenes a smile on rapture’s lips | ||
| And all its voices bards of happiness. | ||
| (S 2) | ||
| There was a chanting in the casual wind, | ||
| There was a glory in the least sunbeam; | ||
| 120 | Night was a chrysoprase on velvet cloth, | |
| A nestling darkness or a moonlit deep; | ||
| Day was a purple pageant and a hymn, | ||
| A wave of the laughter of light from morn to eve. | ||
| (S 3) | ||
| His absence was a dream of memory, | ||
| 125 | His presence was the empire of a god. | |
| (S 4) | ||
| A fusing of the joys of earth and heaven, | ||
| A tremulous blaze of nuptial rapture passed, | ||
| A rushing of two spirits to be one, | ||
| A burning of two bodies in one flame. | ||
| (S 5) | ||
| 130 | Opened were gates of unforgettable bliss: | EoS |
| Two lives were locked within an earthly heaven | ||
| And fate and grief fled from that fiery hour. | ||
| (S 6) | ||
| But soon now failed the summer’s ardent breath | ||
| And throngs of blue-black clouds crept through the sky | ||
| 135 | And rain fled sobbing over the dripping leaves | |
| And storm became the forest’s titan voice. | ||
| (S 7) | ||
| Then listening to the thunder’s fatal crash | ||
| And the fugitive pattering footsteps of the showers | ||
| And the long unsatisfied panting of the wind | ||
| 140 | And sorrow muttering in the sound- vexed night, | |
| The grief of all the world came near to her. | ||
| (S 8) | ||
| Night’s darkness seemed her future’s ominous face. | ||
| (S 9) | ||
| The shadow of her lover’s doom arose | EoS | |
| And fear laid hands upon her mortal heart. | ||
| (S 10) | ||
| 145 | The moments swift and ruthless raced; alarmed | |
| Her thoughts, her mind remembered Narad’s date. | ||
| (S 11) | ||
| A trembling moved accountant of her riches, | EoS | |
| She reckoned the insufficient days between: | ||
| A dire expectancy knocked at her breast; | ||
| 150 | Dreadful to her were the footsteps of the hours: | |
| Grief came, a passionate stranger to her gate: | ||
| Banished when in his arms, out of her sleep | ||
| It rose at morn to look into her face. | ||
| (S 12) | ||
| Vainly she fled into abysms of bliss | ||
| 155 | From her pursuing foresight of the end. | |
| (S 13) | ||
| The more she plunged into love that anguish grew; | ||
| Her deepest grief from sweetest gulfs arose. | ||
| (S 14) | ||
| Remembrance was a poignant pang, she felt | ||
| Each day a golden leaf torn cruelly out | ||
| 160 | From her too slender book of love and joy. | |
| (S 15) | ||
| Thus swaying in strong gusts of happiness | ||
| And swimming in foreboding’s sombre waves | ||
| And feeding sorrow and terror with her heart, — | ||
| For now they sat among her bosom’s guests | ||
| 165 | Or in her inner chamber paced apart, — | |
| Her eyes stared blind into the future’s night. | ||
| (S 16) | ||
| Out of her separate self she looked and saw, | EoS | |
| Moving amid the unconscious faces loved, | ||
| In mind a stranger though in heart so near, | ||
| 170 | The ignorant smiling world go happily by | |
| Upon its way towards an unknown doom | ||
| And wondered at the careless lives of men. | ||
| (S 17) | ||
| As if in different worlds they walked, though close, | ||
| They confident of the returning sun, | ||
| 175 | They wrapped in little hourly hopes and tasks, — | |
| She in her dreadful knowledge was alone. | ||
| (S 18) | ||
| The rich and happy secrecy that once | ||
| Enshrined her as if in a silver bower | ||
| Apart in a bright nest of thoughts and dreams | ||
| 180 | Made room for tragic hours of solitude | |
| And lonely grief that none could share or know, | ||
| A body seeing the end too soon of joy | ||
| And the fragile happiness of its mortal love. | ||
| (S 19) | ||
| Her quiet visage still and sweet and calm, | EoS | |
| 185 | Her graceful daily acts were now a mask; | |
| In vain she looked upon her depths to find | ||
| A ground of stillness and the spirit’s peace. | ||
| (S 20) | ||
| Still veiled from her was the silent Being within | EoS | |
| Who sees life’s drama pass with unmoved eyes, | ||
| 190 | Supports the sorrow of the mind and heart | |
| And bears in human breasts the world and fate. | ||
| (S 21) | ||
| A glimpse or flashes came, the Presence was hid. | ||
| (S 22) | ||
| Only her violent heart and passionate will | ||
| Were pushed in front to meet the immutable doom; | ||
| 195 | Defenceless, nude, bound to her human lot | |
| They had no means to act, no way to save. | ||
| (S 23) | ||
| These she controlled, nothing was shown outside: | EoS | |
| She was still to them the child they knew and loved; | ||
| The sorrowing woman they saw not within. | ||
| (S 24) | ||
| 200 | No change was in her beautiful motions seen: | |
| A worshipped empress all once vied to serve, | ||
| She made herself the diligent serf of all, | ||
| Nor spared the labour of broom and jar and well, | ||
| Or close gentle tending or to heap the fire | ||
| 205 | Of altar and kitchen, no slight task allowed | |
| To others that her woman’s strength might do. | ||
| (S 25) | ||
| In all her acts a strange divinity shone: | ||
| Into a simplest movement she could bring | ||
| A oneness with earth’s glowing robe of light, | ||
| 210 | A lifting up of common acts by love. | |
| (S 26) | ||
| All-love was hers and its one heavenly cord | EoS | |
| Bound all to all with her as golden tie. | ||
| (S 27) | ||
| But when her grief to the surface pressed too close, | ||
| These things, once gracious adjuncts of her joy, | ||
| 215 | Seemed meaningless to her, a gleaming shell, | |
| Or were a round mechanical and void, | ||
| Her body’s actions shared not by her will. | ||
| (S 28) | ||
| Always behind this strange divided life | ||
| Her spirit like a sea of living fire | ||
| 220 | Possessed her lover and to his body clung, | |
| One locked embrace to guard its threatened mate. | ||
| (S 29) | ||
| At night she woke through the slow silent hours | ||
| Brooding on the treasure of his bosom and face, | ||
| Hung o’er the sleep-bound beauty of his brow | ||
| 225 | Or laid her burning cheek upon his feet. | |
| (S 30) | ||
| Waking at morn her lips endlessly clung to his, | ||
| Unwilling ever to separate again | ||
| Or lose that honeyed drain of lingering joy, | ||
| Unwilling to loose his body from her breast, | ||
| 230 | The warm inadequate signs that love must use. | |
| (S 31) | ||
| Intolerant of the poverty of Time | ||
| Her passion catching at the fugitive hours | ||
| Willed the expense of centuries in one day | ||
| Of prodigal love and the surf of ecstasy; | ||
| 235 | Or else she strove even in mortal time | |
| To build a little room for timelessness | ||
| By the deep union of two human lives, | ||
| Her soul secluded shut into his soul. | ||
| (S 32) | ||
| After all was given she demanded still; | ||
| 240 | Even by his strong embrace unsatisfied, | |
| She longed to cry, “O tender Satyavan, | ||
| O lover of my soul, give more, give more | ||
| Of love while yet thou canst, to her thou lov’st. | ||
| (S 33) | ||
| Imprint thyself for every nerve to keep | EoS | |
| 245 | That thrills to thee the message of my heart. | |
| (S 34) | ||
| For soon we part and who shall know how long | ||
| Before the great wheel in its monstrous round | ||
| Restore us to each other and our love?” | ||
| (S 35) | ||
| Too well she loved to speak a fateful word | EoS | |
| 250 | And lay her burden on his happy head; | |
| She pressed the outsurging grief back into her breast | ||
| To dwell within silent, unhelped, alone. | ||
| (S 36) | ||
| But Satyavan sometimes half understood, | ||
| Or felt at least with the uncertain answer | ||
| 255 | Of our thought-blinded hearts the unuttered need, | |
| The unplumbed abyss of her deep passionate want. | ||
| (S 37) | ||
| All of his speeding days that he could spare | EoS | |
| From labour in the forest hewing wood | ||
| And hunting food in the wild sylvan glades | ||
| 260 | And service to his father’s sightless life | |
| He gave to her and helped to increase the hours | ||
| By the nearness of his presence and his clasp, | ||
| And lavish softness of heart-seeking words | ||
| And the close beating felt of heart on heart. | ||
| (S 38) | ||
| 265 | All was too little for her bottomless need. | |
| (S 39) | ||
| If in his presence she forgot awhile, | ||
| Grief filled his absence with its aching touch; | ||
| She saw the desert of her coming days | ||
| Imaged in every solitary hour. | ||
| (S 40) | ||
| 270 | Although with a vain imaginary bliss | EoS |
| Of fiery union through death’s door of escape | ||
| She dreamed of her body robed in funeral flame, | ||
| She knew she must not clutch that happiness | ||
| To die with him and follow, seizing his robe | ||
| 275 | Across our other countries, travellers glad | |
| Into the sweet or terrible Beyond. | ||
| (S 41) | ||
| For those sad parents still would need her here | ||
| To help the empty remnant of their day. | ||
| (S 42) | ||
| Often it seemed to her the ages’ pain | EoS | |
| 280 | Had pressed their quintessence into her single woe, | |
| Concentrating in her a tortured world. | ||
| (S 43) | ||
| Thus in the silent chamber of her soul | EoS | |
| Cloistering her love to live with secret grief | ||
| She dwelt like a dumb priest with hidden gods | ||
| 285 | Unappeased by the wordless offering of her days, | |
| Lifting to them her sorrow like frankincense, | ||
| Her life the altar, herself the sacrifice. | ||
| (S 44) | ||
| Yet ever they grew into each other more | ||
| Until it seemed no power could rend apart, | ||
| 290 | Since even the body’s walls could not divide. | |
| (S 45) | ||
| For when he wandered in the forest, oft | ||
| Her conscious spirit walked with him and knew | ||
| His actions as if in herself he moved; | ||
| He, less aware, thrilled with her from afar. | ||
| (S 46) | ||
| 295 | Always the stature of her passion grew; | |
| Grief, fear became the food of mighty love. | ||
| (S 47) | ||
| Increased by its torment it filled the whole world; | ||
| It was all her life, became her whole earth and heaven. | ||
| (S 48) | ||
| Although life-born, an infant of the hours, | EoS | |
| 300 | Immortal it walked unslayable as the gods: | |
| Her spirit stretched measureless in strength divine, | ||
| An anvil for the blows of Fate and Time: | ||
| Or tired of sorrow’s passionate luxury, | EoS | |
| Grief’s self became calm, dull-eyed, resolute, | ||
| 305 | Awaiting some issue of its fiery struggle, | |
| Some deed in which it might for ever cease, | ||
| Victorious over itself and death and tears. | ||
| (S 49) | ||
| The year now paused upon the brink of change. | ||
| (S 50) | ||
| No more the storms sailed with stupendous wings | ||
| 310 | And thunder strode in wrath across the world, | |
| But still was heard a muttering in the sky | ||
| And rain dripped wearily through the mournful air | ||
| And grey slow-drifting clouds shut in the earth. | ||
| (S 51) | ||
| So her grief’s heavy sky shut in her heart. | EoS | |
| (S 52) | ||
| 315 | A still self hid behind but gave no light: | |
| No voice came down from the forgotten heights; | ||
| Only in the privacy of its brooding pain | ||
| Her human heart spoke to the body’s fate. |
Book 7, Canto 1 – The Joy of Union; the Ordeal of the Foreknowledge of Death and the Heart’s Grief and Pain, Section 2Savitri Bhavan2022-12-15T05:29:04+00:00