| (S 1) | ||
| AT FIRST out of the busy hum of mind | EoS | |
| As if from a loud thronged market into a cave | ||
| By an inward moment’s magic she had come. | ||
| (S 2) | ||
| A stark hushed emptiness became her self: | ||
| 5 | Her mind unvisited by the voice of thought | |
| Stared at a void deep’s dumb infinity. | ||
| (S 3) | ||
| Her heights receded, her depths behind her closed; | ||
| All fled away from her and left her blank. | ||
| (S 4) | ||
| But when she came back to her self of thought, | EoS | |
| 10 | Once more she was a human thing on earth, | |
| A lump of Matter, a house of closed sight, | ||
| A mind compelled to think out ignorance, | ||
| A life-force pressed into a camp of works | ||
| And the material world her limiting field. | ||
| (S 5) | ||
| 15 | Amazed like one unknowing she sought her way | |
| Out of the tangle of man’s ignorant past | ||
| That took the surface person for the soul. | ||
| (S 6) | ||
| Then a Voice spoke that dwelt on secret heights: | EoS | |
| “For man thou seekst, not for thyself alone. | ||
| (S 7) | ||
| 20 | Only if God assumes the human mind | ❊ |
| And puts on mortal ignorance for his cloak | ||
| And makes himself the Dwarf with triple stride, | ||
| Can he help man to grow into the God. | ||
| (S 8) | ||
| As man disguised the cosmic Greatness works | EoS | |
| 25 | And finds the mystic inaccessible gate | |
| And opens the Immortal’s golden door. | ||
| (S 9) | ||
| Man, human, follows in God’s human steps. | ||
| (S 10) | ||
| Accepting his darkness thou must bring to him light, | ||
| Accepting his sorrow thou must bring to him bliss. | ||
| (S 11) | ||
| 30 | In Matter’s body find thy heaven-born soul.” | |
| (S 12) | ||
| Then Savitri surged out of her body’s wall | EoS | |
| And stood a little span outside herself | ||
| And looked into her subtle being’s depths | ||
| And in its heart as in a lotus-bud | ||
| 35 | Divined her secret and mysterious soul. | |
| (S 13) | ||
| At the dim portal of the inner life | ||
| That bars out from our depths the body’s mind | ||
| And all that lives but by the body’s breath, | ||
| She knocked and pressed against the ebony gate. | ||
| (S 14) | ||
| 40 | The living portal groaned with sullen hinge: | EoS |
| Heavily reluctant it complained inert | ||
| Against the tyranny of the spirit’s touch. | ||
| (S 15) | ||
| A formidable voice cried from within: | EoS | |
| “Back, creature of earth, lest tortured and torn thou die.” | ||
| (S 16) | ||
| 45 | A dreadful murmur rose like a dim sea; | |
| The Serpent of the threshold hissing rose, | ||
| A fatal guardian hood with monstrous coils, | ||
| The hounds of darkness growled with jaws agape, | ||
| And trolls and gnomes and goblins scowled and stared | ||
| 50 | And wild beast roarings thrilled the blood with fear | |
| And menace muttered in a dangerous tongue. | ||
| (S 17) | ||
| Unshaken her will pressed on the rigid bars: | ||
| The gate swung wide with a protesting jar, | ||
| The opponent Powers withdrew their dreadful guard; | ||
| 55 | Her being entered into the inner worlds. | |
| (S 18) | ||
| In a narrow passage, the subconscient’s gate, | EoS | |
| She breathed with difficulty and pain and strove | ||
| To find the inner self concealed in sense. | ||
| (S 19) | ||
| Into a dense of subtle Matter packed, | ||
| 60 | A cavity filled with a blind mass of power, | |
| An opposition of misleading gleams, | ||
| A heavy barrier of unseeing sight, | ||
| She forced her way through body to the soul. | ||
| (S 20) | ||
| Across a perilous border line she passed | ||
| 65 | Where Life dips into the subconscient dusk | |
| Or struggles from Matter into chaos of mind, | ||
| Aswarm with elemental entities | ||
| And fluttering shapes of vague half-bodied thought | ||
| And crude beginnings of incontinent force. | ||
| (S 21) | ||
| 70 | At first a difficult narrowness was there, | |
| A press of uncertain powers and drifting wills; | ||
| For all was there but nothing in its place. | ||
| (S 22) | ||
| At times an opening came, a door was forced; | ||
| She crossed through spaces of a secret self | ||
| 75 | And trod in passages of inner Time. | |
| (S 23) | ||
| At last she broke into a form of things, | EoS | |
| A start of finiteness, a world of sense: | ||
| But all was still confused, nothing self-found. | ||
| (S 24) | ||
| Soul was not there but only cries of life. | ||
| (S 25) | ||
| 80 | A thronged and clamorous air environed her. | |
| (S 26) | ||
| A horde of sounds defied significance, | ||
| A dissonant clash of cries and contrary calls; | ||
| A mob of visions broke across the sight, | ||
| Ajostled sequence lacking sense and suite, | ||
| 85 | Feelings pushed through a packed and burdened heart, | |
| Each forced its separate inconsequent way | ||
| But cared for nothing but its ego’s drive. | ||
| (S 27) | ||
| A rally without key of common will, | ||
| Thought stared at thought and pulled at the taut brain | ||
| 90 | As if to pluck the reason from its seat | |
| And cast its corpse into life’s wayside drain; | ||
| So might forgotten lie in Nature’s mud | ||
| Abandoned the slain sentinel of the soul. | ||
| (S 28) | ||
| So could life’s power shake from it mind’s rule, | EoS | |
| 95 | Nature renounce the spirit’s government | |
| And the bare elemental energies | ||
| Make of the sense a glory of boundless joy, | ||
| A splendour of ecstatic anarchy,, | ||
| A revel mighty and mad of utter bliss. | ||
| (S 29) | ||
| 100 | This was the sense’s instinct void of soul | |
| Or when the soul sleeps hidden void of power, | ||
| But now the vital godhead wakes within | ||
| And lifts the life with the Supernal’s touch. | ||
| (S 30) | ||
| But how shall come the glory and the flame | EoS | |
| 105 | If mind is cast away into the abyss? | |
| (S 31) | ||
| For body without mind has not the light, | ||
| The rapture of spirit sense, the joy of life; | ||
| All then becomes subconscient, tenebrous, | ||
| Inconscience puts its seal on Nature’s page | ||
| 110 | Or else a mad disorder whirls the brain | |
| Posting along a ravaged nature’s roads, | ||
| A chaos of disordered impulses | ||
| In which no light can come, no joy, no peace. | ||
| (S 32) | ||
| This state now threatened, this she pushed from her. | ||
| (S 33) | ||
| 115 | As if in a long endless tossing street | |
| One driven mid a trampling hurrying crowd | ||
| Hour after hour she trod without release | ||
| Holding by her will the senseless meute at bay; | ||
| Out of the dreadful press she dragged her will | EoS | |
| 120 | And fixed her thought upon the saviour Name; | |
| Then all grew still and empty; she was free. | ||
| (S 34) | ||
| A large deliverance came, a vast calm space. | ||
| (S 35) | ||
| Awhile she moved through a blank tranquillity | ||
| Of naked Light from an invisible sun, | ||
| 125 | A void that was a bodiless happiness, | |
| A blissful vacuum of nameless peace. | ||
| (S 36) | ||
| But now a mightier danger’s front drew near: | ||
| The press of bodily mind, the Inconscient’s brood | ||
| Of aimless thought and will had fallen from her. | ||
| (S 37) | ||
| 130 | Approaching loomed a giant head of Life | |
| Ungoverned by mind or soul, subconscient, vast. | ||
| (S 38) | ||
| It tossed all power into a single drive, | ||
| It made its power a might of dangerous seas. | ||
| (S 39) | ||
| Into the stillness of her silent self, | EoS | |
| 135 | Into the whiteness of its muse of Space | |
| A spate, a torrent of the speed of Life | ||
| Broke like a wind-lashed driven mob of waves | ||
| Racing on a pale floor of summer sand; | ||
| It drowned its banks, a mountain of climbing waves. | ||
| (S 40) | ||
| 140 | Enormous was its vast and passionate voice. | |
| (S 41) | ||
| It cried to her listening spirit as it ran, | ||
| Demanding God’s submission to chainless Force. | ||
| (S 42) | ||
| A deaf force calling to a status dumb, | EoS | |
| A thousand voices in a muted Vast, | ||
| 145 | It claimed the heart’s support for its clutch at joy, | |
| For its need to act the witness Soul’s consent, | ||
| For its lust of power her neutral being’s seal. | ||
| (S 43) | ||
| Into the wideness of her watching self | ||
| It brought a grandiose gust of the Breath of Life; | ||
| 150 | Its torrent carried the world’s hopes and fears, | |
| All life’s, all Nature’s dissatisfied hungry cry, | ||
| And the longing all eternity cannot fill. | ||
| (S 44) | ||
| It called to the mountain secrecies of the soul | ||
| And the miracle of the never-dying fire, | ||
| 155 | It spoke to some first inexpressible ecstasy | |
| Hidden in the creative beat of Life; | ||
| Out of the nether unseen deeps it tore | EoS | |
| Its lure and magic of disordered bliss, | ||
| Into earth-light poured its maze of tangled charm | ||
| 160 | And heady draught of Nature’s primitive joy | |
| And the fire and mystery of forbidden delight | ||
| Drunk from the world-libido’s bottomless well, | ||
| And the honey-sweet poison-wine of lust and death, | ||
| But dreamed a vintage of glory of life’s gods, | ||
| 165 | And felt as celestial rapture’s golden sting. | |
| (S 45) | ||
| The cycles of the infinity of desire | EoS | |
| And the mystique that made an unrealised world | ||
| Wider than the known and closer than the unknown | ||
| In which hunt for ever the hounds of mind and life, | ||
| 170 | Tempted a deep dissatisfied urge within | |
| To long for the unfulfilled and ever far | ||
| And make this life upon a limiting earth | ||
| A climb towards summits vanishing in the void, | ||
| A search for the glory of the impossible. | ||
| (S 46) | ||
| 175 | It dreamed of that which never has been known, | |
| It grasped at that which never has been won, | ||
| It chased into an Elysian memory | ||
| The charms that flee from the heart’s soon lost delight; | ||
| It dared the force that slays, the joys that hurt, | ||
| 180 | The imaged shape of unaccomplished things | |
| And the summons to a Circean transmuting dance | ||
| And passion’s tenancy of the courts of love | ||
| And the wild Beast’s ramp and romp with Beauty and Life. | ||
| (S 47) | ||
| It brought its cry and surge of opposite powers, | ||
| 185 | Its moments of the touch of luminous planes, | |
| Its flame-ascensions and sky-pitched vast attempts, | ||
| Its fiery towers of dream built on the winds, | ||
| Its sinkings towards the darkness and the abyss, | ||
| Its honey of tenderness, its sharp wine of hate, | ||
| 190 | Its changes of sun and cloud, of laughter and tears, | |
| Its bottomless danger-pits and swallowing gulfs, | ||
| Its fear and joy and ecstasy and despair, | ||
| Its occult wizardries, its simple lines | ||
| And great communions and uplifting moves, | ||
| 195 | Its faith in heaven, its intercourse with hell. | |
| (S 48) | ||
| These powers were not blunt with the dead weight of earth, | ||
| They gave ambrosia’s taste and poison’s sting. | ||
| (S 49) | ||
| There was an ardour in the gaze of Life | ||
| That saw heaven blue in the grey air of Night: | ||
| 200 | The impulses godward soared on passion’s wings. | |
| (S 50) | ||
| Mind’s quick-paced thoughts floated from their high necks, | ||
| A glowing splendour as of an irised mane, | ||
| A parure of pure intuition’s light; | ||
| Its flame-foot gallop they could imitate: | ||
| 205 | Mind’s voices mimicked inspiration’s stress, | |
| Its ictus of infallibility, | ||
| Its speed and lightning heaven-leap of the Gods. | ||
| (S 51) | ||
| A trenchant blade that shore the nets of doubt, | EoS | |
| Its sword of discernment seemed almost divine. | ||
| (S 52) | ||
| 210 | Yet all that knowledge was a borrowed sun’s; | |
| The forms that came were not heaven’s native births: | ||
| An inner voice could speak the unreal’s Word; | ||
| Its puissance dangerous and absolute | ||
| Could mingle poison with the wine of God. | ||
| (S 53) | ||
| 215 | On these high shining backs falsehood could ride; | EoS |
| Truth lay with delight in error’s passionate arms | ||
| Gliding downstream in a blithe gilded barge: | ||
| She edged her ray with a magnificent lie. | ||
| (S 54) | ||
| Here in Life’s nether realms all contraries meet; | ||
| 220 | Truth stares and does her works with bandaged eyes | |
| And Ignorance is Wisdom’s patron here: | ||
| Those galloping hooves in their enthusiast speed | ||
| Could bear to a dangerous intermediate zone | ||
| Where Death walks wearing a robe of deathless Life. | ||
| (S 55) | ||
| 225 | Or they enter the valley of the wandering Gleam | EoS |
| Whence, captives or victims of the specious Ray, | ||
| Souls trapped in that region never can escape. | ||
| (S 56) | ||
| Agents, not masters, they serve Life’s desires | ||
| Toiling for ever in the snare of Time. | ||
| (S 57) | ||
| 230 | Their bodies born out of some Nihil’s womb | |
| Ensnare the spirit in the moment’s dreams, | ||
| Then perish vomiting the immortal soul | ||
| Out of Matter’s belly into the sink of Nought. | ||
| (S 58) | ||
| Yet some uncaught, unslain, can warily pass | EoS | |
| 235 | Carrying Truth’s image in the sheltered heart, | |
| Pluck Knowledge out of error’s screening grip, | ||
| Break paths through the blind walls of little self, | ||
| Then travel on to reach a greater life. | ||
| (S 59) | ||
| All this streamed past her and seemed to her vision’s sight | ||
| 240 | As if around a high and voiceless isle | |
| A clamour of waters from far unknown hills | ||
| Swallowed its narrow banks in crowding waves | ||
| And made a hungry world of white wild foam: | ||
| Hastening, a dragon with a million feet, | ||
| 245 | Its foam and cry a drunken giant’s din, | |
| Tossing a mane of Darkness into God’s sky, | ||
| It ebbed receding into a distant roar. | ||
| (S 60) | ||
| Then smiled again a large and tranquil air: | ||
| Blue heaven, green earth, partners of Beauty’s reign, | ||
| 250 | Lived as of old, companions in happiness; | |
| And in the world’s heart laughed the joy of life. | ||
| (S 61) | ||
| All now was still, the soil shone dry and pure. | EoS | |
| (S 62) | ||
| Through it all she moved not, plunged not in the vain waves. | ||
| (S 63) | ||
| Out of the vastness of the silent self | ||
| 255 | Life’s clamour fled; her spirit was mute and free. |
Book 7, Canto 3 – The Entry into the Inner Countries, Section 1Savitri Bhavan2022-01-18T23:37:41+00:00