(S 1) | ||
ONWARD she passed seeking the soul’s mystic cave. | EoS | |
(S 2) | ||
At first she stepped into a night of God. | ||
(S 3) | ||
The light was quenched that helps the labouring world, | ||
The power that struggles and stumbles in our life; | ||
5 | This inefficient mind gave up its thoughts, | |
The striving heart its unavailing hopes. | ||
(S 4) | ||
All knowledge failed and the Idea’s forms | EoS | |
And Wisdom screened in awe her lowly head | ||
Feeling a Truth too great for thought or speech, | ||
10 | Formless,ineffable, for ever the same. | |
(S 5) | ||
An innocent and holy Ignorance | ||
Adored like one who worships formless God | ||
The unseen Light she could not claim nor own. | ||
(S 6) | ||
In a simple purity of emptiness | ||
15 | Her mind knelt down before the unknowable. | |
(S 7) | ||
All was abolished save her naked self | EoS | |
And the prostrate yearning of her surrendered heart: | ||
There was no strength in her, no pride of force; | ||
The lofty burning of desire had sunk | ||
20 | Ashamed, a vanity of separate self, | |
The hope of spiritual greatness fled, | ||
Salvation she asked not nor a heavenly crown: | ||
Humility seemed now too proud a state. | ||
(S 8) | ||
Her self was nothing, God alone was all, | ||
25 | Yet God she knew not but only knew he was. | |
(S 9) | ||
A sacred darkness brooded now within, | ||
The world was a deep darkness great and nude. | ||
(S 10) | ||
This void held more than all the teeming worlds, | ||
This blank felt more than all that Time has borne, | ||
30 | This dark knew dumbly, immensely the Unknown. | |
(S 11) | ||
But all was formless, voiceless, infinite. | ||
As might a shadow walk in a shadowy scene, | ||
A small nought passing through a mightier Nought, | ||
A night of person in a bare outline | ||
35 | Crossing a fathomless impersonal Night, | |
Silent she moved, empty and absolute. | ||
(S 12) | ||
In endless Time her soul reached a wide end, | EoS | |
The spaceless Vast became her spirit’s place. | ||
(S 13) | ||
At last a change approached, the emptiness broke; | ||
40 | A wave rippled within, the world had stirred; | |
Once more her inner self became her space. | ||
(S 14) | ||
There was felt a blissful nearness to the goal; | ||
Heaven leaned low to kiss the sacred hill, | ||
The air trembled with passion and delight. | ||
(S 15) | ||
45 | A rose of splendour on a tree of dreams, | |
The face of Dawn out of mooned twilight grew. | ||
(S 16) | ||
Day came, priest of a sacrifice of joy | ||
Into the worshipping silence of her world; | ||
He carried immortal lustre as his robe, | ||
50 | Trailed heaven like a purple scarf and wore | |
As his vermilion casste-mark a red sun. | ||
(S 17) | ||
As if an old remembered dream come true, | EoS | |
She recognised in her prophetic mind | ||
The imperishable lustre of that sky, | ||
55 | The tremulous sweetness of that happy air | |
And, covered from mind’s view and life’s approach, | ||
The mystic cavern in the sacred hill | ||
And knew the dwelling of her secret soul. | ||
(S 18) | ||
As if in some Elysian occult depth, | EoS | |
60 | Truth’s last retreat from thought’s profaning touch, | |
As if in a rock-temple’s solitude hid, | ||
God’s refuge from an ignorant worshipping world, | ||
It lay withdrawn even from life’s inner sense, | ||
Receding from the entangled heart’s desire. | ||
(S 19) | ||
65 | A marvellous brooding twilight met the eyes | EoS |
And a holy stillness held that voiceless space. | ||
(S 20) | ||
An awful dimness wrapped the great rock-doors | ||
Carved in the massive stone of Matter’s trance. | ||
(S 21) | ||
Two golden serpents round the lintel curled, | ||
70 | Enveloping it with their pure and dreadful strength, | |
Looked out with wisdom’s deep and luminous eyes. | ||
(S 22) | ||
An eagle covered it with wide conquering wings: | ||
Flames of self-lost immobile reverie, | ||
Doves crowded the grey musing cornices | ||
75 | Like sculptured postures of white-bosomed peace. | |
(S 23) | ||
Across the threshold’s sleep she entered in | ||
And found herself amid great figures of gods | ||
Conscious in stone and living without breath, | ||
Watching with fixed regard the soul of man, | ||
80 | Executive figures of the cosmic self, | |
World-symbols of immutable potency. | ||
(S 24) | ||
On the walls covered with significant shapes | EoS | |
Looked at her the life-scene of man and beast | ||
And the high meaning of the life of gods, | ||
85 | The power and necessity of these numberless worlds, | |
And faces of beings and stretches of world-space | ||
Spoke the succinct and inexhaustible | ||
Hieratic message of the climbing planes. | ||
(S 25) | ||
In their immensitude signing infinity | EoS | |
90 | They were the extension of the self of God | |
And housed,impassively receiving all, | ||
His figures and his small and mighty acts | ||
And his passion and his birth and life and death | ||
And his return to immortality. | ||
(S 26) | ||
95 | To the abiding and eternal is their climb, | |
To the pure existence everywhere the same, | ||
To the sheer consciousness and the absolute force | ||
And the unimaginable and formless bliss, | ||
To the mirth in Time and the timeless mystery | ||
100 | Of the triune being who is all and one | |
And yet is no one but himself apart. | ||
(S 27) | ||
There was no step of breathing men, no sound, | ||
Only the living nearness of the soul. | ||
Yet all the worlds and God himself were there, | ||
105 | For every symbol was a reality | |
And brought the presence which had given it life. | ||
(S 28) | ||
All this she saw and inly felt and knew | EoS | |
Not by some thought of mind but by the self. | ||
(S 29) | ||
A light not born of sun or moon or fire, | ||
110 | A light that dwelt within and saw within | |
Shedding an intimate visibility | ||
Made secrecy more revealing than the word: | ||
Our sight and sense are a fallible gaze and touch | ||
And only the spirit’s vision is wholly true. | ||
(S 30) | ||
115 | As thus she passed in that mysterious place | EoS |
Through room and room, through door and rock-hewn door, | ||
She felt herself made one with all she saw. | ||
(S 31) | ||
A sealed identity within her woke; | ||
She knew herself the Beloved of the Supreme: | ||
120 | These Gods and Goddesses were he and she: | |
The Mother was she of Beauty and Delight, | ||
The Word in Brahma’s vast creating clasp, | ||
The World-Puissance on almighty Shiva’s lap, — | ||
The Master and the Mother of all lives | ||
125 | Watching the worlds their twin regard had made, | |
And Krishna and Radha for ever entwined in bliss, | ||
The Adorer and Adored self-lost and one. | ||
(S 32) | ||
In the last chamber on a golden seat | EoS | |
One sat whose shape no vision could define; | ||
130 | Only one felt the world’s unattainable fount, | |
A Power of which she was a straying Force, | ||
An invisible Beauty, goal of the world’s desire, | ||
A Sun of which all knowledge is a beam, | ||
A Greatness without whom no life could be. | ||
(S 33) | ||
135 | Thence all departed into silent self, | EoS |
And all became formless and pure and bare. | ||
(S 34) | ||
Then through a tunnel dug in the last rock | ||
She came out where there shone a deathless sun. | ||
(S 35) | ||
A house was there all made of flame and light | ||
140 | And crossing a wall of doorless living fire | |
There suddenly she met her secret soul. |
Book 7, Canto 5 – The Finding of the Soul, Section 1Savitri Bhavan2022-02-20T18:46:37+00:00