(S 1) | ||
At first to her beneath the sapphire heavens | ||
The sylvan solitude was a gorgeous dream, | ||
An altar of the summer’s splendour and fire, | ||
115 | A sky-topped flower-hung palace of the gods | |
And all its scenes a smile on rapture’s lips | ||
And all its voices bards of happiness. | ||
(S 2) | ||
There was a chanting in the casual wind, | ||
There was a glory in the least sunbeam; | ||
120 | Night was a chrysoprase on velvet cloth, | |
A nestling darkness or a moonlit deep; | ||
Day was a purple pageant and a hymn, | ||
A wave of the laughter of light from morn to eve. | ||
(S 3) | ||
His absence was a dream of memory, | ||
125 | His presence was the empire of a god. | |
(S 4) | ||
A fusing of the joys of earth and heaven, | ||
A tremulous blaze of nuptial rapture passed, | ||
A rushing of two spirits to be one, | ||
A burning of two bodies in one flame. | ||
(S 5) | ||
130 | Opened were gates of unforgettable bliss: | EoS |
Two lives were locked within an earthly heaven | ||
And fate and grief fled from that fiery hour. | ||
(S 6) | ||
But soon now failed the summer’s ardent breath | ||
And throngs of blue-black clouds crept through the sky | ||
135 | And rain fled sobbing over the dripping leaves | |
And storm became the forest’s titan voice. | ||
(S 7) | ||
Then listening to the thunder’s fatal crash | ||
And the fugitive pattering footsteps of the showers | ||
And the long unsatisfied panting of the wind | ||
140 | And sorrow muttering in the sound- vexed night, | |
The grief of all the world came near to her. | ||
(S 8) | ||
Night’s darkness seemed her future’s ominous face. | ||
(S 9) | ||
The shadow of her lover’s doom arose | EoS | |
And fear laid hands upon her mortal heart. | ||
(S 10) | ||
145 | The moments swift and ruthless raced; alarmed | |
Her thoughts, her mind remembered Narad’s date. | ||
(S 11) | ||
A trembling moved accountant of her riches, | EoS | |
She reckoned the insufficient days between: | ||
A dire expectancy knocked at her breast; | ||
150 | Dreadful to her were the footsteps of the hours: | |
Grief came, a passionate stranger to her gate: | ||
Banished when in his arms, out of her sleep | ||
It rose at morn to look into her face. | ||
(S 12) | ||
Vainly she fled into abysms of bliss | ||
155 | From her pursuing foresight of the end. | |
(S 13) | ||
The more she plunged into love that anguish grew; | ||
Her deepest grief from sweetest gulfs arose. | ||
(S 14) | ||
Remembrance was a poignant pang, she felt | ||
Each day a golden leaf torn cruelly out | ||
160 | From her too slender book of love and joy. | |
(S 15) | ||
Thus swaying in strong gusts of happiness | ||
And swimming in foreboding’s sombre waves | ||
And feeding sorrow and terror with her heart, — | ||
For now they sat among her bosom’s guests | ||
165 | Or in her inner chamber paced apart, — | |
Her eyes stared blind into the future’s night. | ||
(S 16) | ||
Out of her separate self she looked and saw, | EoS | |
Moving amid the unconscious faces loved, | ||
In mind a stranger though in heart so near, | ||
170 | The ignorant smiling world go happily by | |
Upon its way towards an unknown doom | ||
And wondered at the careless lives of men. | ||
(S 17) | ||
As if in different worlds they walked, though close, | ||
They confident of the returning sun, | ||
175 | They wrapped in little hourly hopes and tasks, — | |
She in her dreadful knowledge was alone. | ||
(S 18) | ||
The rich and happy secrecy that once | ||
Enshrined her as if in a silver bower | ||
Apart in a bright nest of thoughts and dreams | ||
180 | Made room for tragic hours of solitude | |
And lonely grief that none could share or know, | ||
A body seeing the end too soon of joy | ||
And the fragile happiness of its mortal love. | ||
(S 19) | ||
Her quiet visage still and sweet and calm, | EoS | |
185 | Her graceful daily acts were now a mask; | |
In vain she looked upon her depths to find | ||
A ground of stillness and the spirit’s peace. | ||
(S 20) | ||
Still veiled from her was the silent Being within | EoS | |
Who sees life’s drama pass with unmoved eyes, | ||
190 | Supports the sorrow of the mind and heart | |
And bears in human breasts the world and fate. | ||
(S 21) | ||
A glimpse or flashes came, the Presence was hid. | ||
(S 22) | ||
Only her violent heart and passionate will | ||
Were pushed in front to meet the immutable doom; | ||
195 | Defenceless, nude, bound to her human lot | |
They had no means to act, no way to save. | ||
(S 23) | ||
These she controlled, nothing was shown outside: | EoS | |
She was still to them the child they knew and loved; | ||
The sorrowing woman they saw not within. | ||
(S 24) | ||
200 | No change was in her beautiful motions seen: | |
A worshipped empress all once vied to serve, | ||
She made herself the diligent serf of all, | ||
Nor spared the labour of broom and jar and well, | ||
Or close gentle tending or to heap the fire | ||
205 | Of altar and kitchen, no slight task allowed | |
To others that her woman’s strength might do. | ||
(S 25) | ||
In all her acts a strange divinity shone: | ||
Into a simplest movement she could bring | ||
A oneness with earth’s glowing robe of light, | ||
210 | A lifting up of common acts by love. | |
(S 26) | ||
All-love was hers and its one heavenly cord | EoS | |
Bound all to all with her as golden tie. | ||
(S 27) | ||
But when her grief to the surface pressed too close, | ||
These things, once gracious adjuncts of her joy, | ||
215 | Seemed meaningless to her, a gleaming shell, | |
Or were a round mechanical and void, | ||
Her body’s actions shared not by her will. | ||
(S 28) | ||
Always behind this strange divided life | ||
Her spirit like a sea of living fire | ||
220 | Possessed her lover and to his body clung, | |
One locked embrace to guard its threatened mate. | ||
(S 29) | ||
At night she woke through the slow silent hours | ||
Brooding on the treasure of his bosom and face, | ||
Hung o’er the sleep-bound beauty of his brow | ||
225 | Or laid her burning cheek upon his feet. | |
(S 30) | ||
Waking at morn her lips endlessly clung to his, | ||
Unwilling ever to separate again | ||
Or lose that honeyed drain of lingering joy, | ||
Unwilling to loose his body from her breast, | ||
230 | The warm inadequate signs that love must use. | |
(S 31) | ||
Intolerant of the poverty of Time | ||
Her passion catching at the fugitive hours | ||
Willed the expense of centuries in one day | ||
Of prodigal love and the surf of ecstasy; | ||
235 | Or else she strove even in mortal time | |
To build a little room for timelessness | ||
By the deep union of two human lives, | ||
Her soul secluded shut into his soul. | ||
(S 32) | ||
After all was given she demanded still; | ||
240 | Even by his strong embrace unsatisfied, | |
She longed to cry, “O tender Satyavan, | ||
O lover of my soul, give more, give more | ||
Of love while yet thou canst, to her thou lov’st. | ||
(S 33) | ||
Imprint thyself for every nerve to keep | EoS | |
245 | That thrills to thee the message of my heart. | |
(S 34) | ||
For soon we part and who shall know how long | ||
Before the great wheel in its monstrous round | ||
Restore us to each other and our love?” | ||
(S 35) | ||
Too well she loved to speak a fateful word | EoS | |
250 | And lay her burden on his happy head; | |
She pressed the outsurging grief back into her breast | ||
To dwell within silent, unhelped, alone. | ||
(S 36) | ||
But Satyavan sometimes half understood, | ||
Or felt at least with the uncertain answer | ||
255 | Of our thought-blinded hearts the unuttered need, | |
The unplumbed abyss of her deep passionate want. | ||
(S 37) | ||
All of his speeding days that he could spare | EoS | |
From labour in the forest hewing wood | ||
And hunting food in the wild sylvan glades | ||
260 | And service to his father’s sightless life | |
He gave to her and helped to increase the hours | ||
By the nearness of his presence and his clasp, | ||
And lavish softness of heart-seeking words | ||
And the close beating felt of heart on heart. | ||
(S 38) | ||
265 | All was too little for her bottomless need. | |
(S 39) | ||
If in his presence she forgot awhile, | ||
Grief filled his absence with its aching touch; | ||
She saw the desert of her coming days | ||
Imaged in every solitary hour. | ||
(S 40) | ||
270 | Although with a vain imaginary bliss | EoS |
Of fiery union through death’s door of escape | ||
She dreamed of her body robed in funeral flame, | ||
She knew she must not clutch that happiness | ||
To die with him and follow, seizing his robe | ||
275 | Across our other countries, travellers glad | |
Into the sweet or terrible Beyond. | ||
(S 41) | ||
For those sad parents still would need her here | ||
To help the empty remnant of their day. | ||
(S 42) | ||
Often it seemed to her the ages’ pain | EoS | |
280 | Had pressed their quintessence into her single woe, | |
Concentrating in her a tortured world. | ||
(S 43) | ||
Thus in the silent chamber of her soul | EoS | |
Cloistering her love to live with secret grief | ||
She dwelt like a dumb priest with hidden gods | ||
285 | Unappeased by the wordless offering of her days, | |
Lifting to them her sorrow like frankincense, | ||
Her life the altar, herself the sacrifice. | ||
(S 44) | ||
Yet ever they grew into each other more | ||
Until it seemed no power could rend apart, | ||
290 | Since even the body’s walls could not divide. | |
(S 45) | ||
For when he wandered in the forest, oft | ||
Her conscious spirit walked with him and knew | ||
His actions as if in herself he moved; | ||
He, less aware, thrilled with her from afar. | ||
(S 46) | ||
295 | Always the stature of her passion grew; | |
Grief, fear became the food of mighty love. | ||
(S 47) | ||
Increased by its torment it filled the whole world; | ||
It was all her life, became her whole earth and heaven. | ||
(S 48) | ||
Although life-born, an infant of the hours, | EoS | |
300 | Immortal it walked unslayable as the gods: | |
Her spirit stretched measureless in strength divine, | ||
An anvil for the blows of Fate and Time: | ||
Or tired of sorrow’s passionate luxury, | EoS | |
Grief’s self became calm, dull-eyed, resolute, | ||
305 | Awaiting some issue of its fiery struggle, | |
Some deed in which it might for ever cease, | ||
Victorious over itself and death and tears. | ||
(S 49) | ||
The year now paused upon the brink of change. | ||
(S 50) | ||
No more the storms sailed with stupendous wings | ||
310 | And thunder strode in wrath across the world, | |
But still was heard a muttering in the sky | ||
And rain dripped wearily through the mournful air | ||
And grey slow-drifting clouds shut in the earth. | ||
(S 51) | ||
So her grief’s heavy sky shut in her heart. | EoS | |
(S 52) | ||
315 | A still self hid behind but gave no light: | |
No voice came down from the forgotten heights; | ||
Only in the privacy of its brooding pain | ||
Her human heart spoke to the body’s fate. |
Book 7, Canto 1 – The Joy of Union; the Ordeal of the Foreknowledge of Death and the Heart’s Grief and Pain, Section 2Savitri Bhavan2022-12-15T05:29:04+00:00