(S 1) | ||
AT FIRST out of the busy hum of mind | EoS | |
As if from a loud thronged market into a cave | ||
By an inward moment’s magic she had come. | ||
(S 2) | ||
A stark hushed emptiness became her self: | ||
5 | Her mind unvisited by the voice of thought | |
Stared at a void deep’s dumb infinity. | ||
(S 3) | ||
Her heights receded, her depths behind her closed; | ||
All fled away from her and left her blank. | ||
(S 4) | ||
But when she came back to her self of thought, | EoS | |
10 | Once more she was a human thing on earth, | |
A lump of Matter, a house of closed sight, | ||
A mind compelled to think out ignorance, | ||
A life-force pressed into a camp of works | ||
And the material world her limiting field. | ||
(S 5) | ||
15 | Amazed like one unknowing she sought her way | |
Out of the tangle of man’s ignorant past | ||
That took the surface person for the soul. | ||
(S 6) | ||
Then a Voice spoke that dwelt on secret heights: | EoS | |
“For man thou seekst, not for thyself alone. | ||
(S 7) | ||
20 | Only if God assumes the human mind | ❊ |
And puts on mortal ignorance for his cloak | ||
And makes himself the Dwarf with triple stride, | ||
Can he help man to grow into the God. | ||
(S 8) | ||
As man disguised the cosmic Greatness works | EoS | |
25 | And finds the mystic inaccessible gate | |
And opens the Immortal’s golden door. | ||
(S 9) | ||
Man, human, follows in God’s human steps. | ||
(S 10) | ||
Accepting his darkness thou must bring to him light, | ||
Accepting his sorrow thou must bring to him bliss. | ||
(S 11) | ||
30 | In Matter’s body find thy heaven-born soul.” | |
(S 12) | ||
Then Savitri surged out of her body’s wall | EoS | |
And stood a little span outside herself | ||
And looked into her subtle being’s depths | ||
And in its heart as in a lotus-bud | ||
35 | Divined her secret and mysterious soul. | |
(S 13) | ||
At the dim portal of the inner life | ||
That bars out from our depths the body’s mind | ||
And all that lives but by the body’s breath, | ||
She knocked and pressed against the ebony gate. | ||
(S 14) | ||
40 | The living portal groaned with sullen hinge: | EoS |
Heavily reluctant it complained inert | ||
Against the tyranny of the spirit’s touch. | ||
(S 15) | ||
A formidable voice cried from within: | EoS | |
“Back, creature of earth, lest tortured and torn thou die.” | ||
(S 16) | ||
45 | A dreadful murmur rose like a dim sea; | |
The Serpent of the threshold hissing rose, | ||
A fatal guardian hood with monstrous coils, | ||
The hounds of darkness growled with jaws agape, | ||
And trolls and gnomes and goblins scowled and stared | ||
50 | And wild beast roarings thrilled the blood with fear | |
And menace muttered in a dangerous tongue. | ||
(S 17) | ||
Unshaken her will pressed on the rigid bars: | ||
The gate swung wide with a protesting jar, | ||
The opponent Powers withdrew their dreadful guard; | ||
55 | Her being entered into the inner worlds. | |
(S 18) | ||
In a narrow passage, the subconscient’s gate, | EoS | |
She breathed with difficulty and pain and strove | ||
To find the inner self concealed in sense. | ||
(S 19) | ||
Into a dense of subtle Matter packed, | ||
60 | A cavity filled with a blind mass of power, | |
An opposition of misleading gleams, | ||
A heavy barrier of unseeing sight, | ||
She forced her way through body to the soul. | ||
(S 20) | ||
Across a perilous border line she passed | ||
65 | Where Life dips into the subconscient dusk | |
Or struggles from Matter into chaos of mind, | ||
Aswarm with elemental entities | ||
And fluttering shapes of vague half-bodied thought | ||
And crude beginnings of incontinent force. | ||
(S 21) | ||
70 | At first a difficult narrowness was there, | |
A press of uncertain powers and drifting wills; | ||
For all was there but nothing in its place. | ||
(S 22) | ||
At times an opening came, a door was forced; | ||
She crossed through spaces of a secret self | ||
75 | And trod in passages of inner Time. | |
(S 23) | ||
At last she broke into a form of things, | EoS | |
A start of finiteness, a world of sense: | ||
But all was still confused, nothing self-found. | ||
(S 24) | ||
Soul was not there but only cries of life. | ||
(S 25) | ||
80 | A thronged and clamorous air environed her. | |
(S 26) | ||
A horde of sounds defied significance, | ||
A dissonant clash of cries and contrary calls; | ||
A mob of visions broke across the sight, | ||
Ajostled sequence lacking sense and suite, | ||
85 | Feelings pushed through a packed and burdened heart, | |
Each forced its separate inconsequent way | ||
But cared for nothing but its ego’s drive. | ||
(S 27) | ||
A rally without key of common will, | ||
Thought stared at thought and pulled at the taut brain | ||
90 | As if to pluck the reason from its seat | |
And cast its corpse into life’s wayside drain; | ||
So might forgotten lie in Nature’s mud | ||
Abandoned the slain sentinel of the soul. | ||
(S 28) | ||
So could life’s power shake from it mind’s rule, | EoS | |
95 | Nature renounce the spirit’s government | |
And the bare elemental energies | ||
Make of the sense a glory of boundless joy, | ||
A splendour of ecstatic anarchy,, | ||
A revel mighty and mad of utter bliss. | ||
(S 29) | ||
100 | This was the sense’s instinct void of soul | |
Or when the soul sleeps hidden void of power, | ||
But now the vital godhead wakes within | ||
And lifts the life with the Supernal’s touch. | ||
(S 30) | ||
But how shall come the glory and the flame | EoS | |
105 | If mind is cast away into the abyss? | |
(S 31) | ||
For body without mind has not the light, | ||
The rapture of spirit sense, the joy of life; | ||
All then becomes subconscient, tenebrous, | ||
Inconscience puts its seal on Nature’s page | ||
110 | Or else a mad disorder whirls the brain | |
Posting along a ravaged nature’s roads, | ||
A chaos of disordered impulses | ||
In which no light can come, no joy, no peace. | ||
(S 32) | ||
This state now threatened, this she pushed from her. | ||
(S 33) | ||
115 | As if in a long endless tossing street | |
One driven mid a trampling hurrying crowd | ||
Hour after hour she trod without release | ||
Holding by her will the senseless meute at bay; | ||
Out of the dreadful press she dragged her will | EoS | |
120 | And fixed her thought upon the saviour Name; | |
Then all grew still and empty; she was free. | ||
(S 34) | ||
A large deliverance came, a vast calm space. | ||
(S 35) | ||
Awhile she moved through a blank tranquillity | ||
Of naked Light from an invisible sun, | ||
125 | A void that was a bodiless happiness, | |
A blissful vacuum of nameless peace. | ||
(S 36) | ||
But now a mightier danger’s front drew near: | ||
The press of bodily mind, the Inconscient’s brood | ||
Of aimless thought and will had fallen from her. | ||
(S 37) | ||
130 | Approaching loomed a giant head of Life | |
Ungoverned by mind or soul, subconscient, vast. | ||
(S 38) | ||
It tossed all power into a single drive, | ||
It made its power a might of dangerous seas. | ||
(S 39) | ||
Into the stillness of her silent self, | EoS | |
135 | Into the whiteness of its muse of Space | |
A spate, a torrent of the speed of Life | ||
Broke like a wind-lashed driven mob of waves | ||
Racing on a pale floor of summer sand; | ||
It drowned its banks, a mountain of climbing waves. | ||
(S 40) | ||
140 | Enormous was its vast and passionate voice. | |
(S 41) | ||
It cried to her listening spirit as it ran, | ||
Demanding God’s submission to chainless Force. | ||
(S 42) | ||
A deaf force calling to a status dumb, | EoS | |
A thousand voices in a muted Vast, | ||
145 | It claimed the heart’s support for its clutch at joy, | |
For its need to act the witness Soul’s consent, | ||
For its lust of power her neutral being’s seal. | ||
(S 43) | ||
Into the wideness of her watching self | ||
It brought a grandiose gust of the Breath of Life; | ||
150 | Its torrent carried the world’s hopes and fears, | |
All life’s, all Nature’s dissatisfied hungry cry, | ||
And the longing all eternity cannot fill. | ||
(S 44) | ||
It called to the mountain secrecies of the soul | ||
And the miracle of the never-dying fire, | ||
155 | It spoke to some first inexpressible ecstasy | |
Hidden in the creative beat of Life; | ||
Out of the nether unseen deeps it tore | EoS | |
Its lure and magic of disordered bliss, | ||
Into earth-light poured its maze of tangled charm | ||
160 | And heady draught of Nature’s primitive joy | |
And the fire and mystery of forbidden delight | ||
Drunk from the world-libido’s bottomless well, | ||
And the honey-sweet poison-wine of lust and death, | ||
But dreamed a vintage of glory of life’s gods, | ||
165 | And felt as celestial rapture’s golden sting. | |
(S 45) | ||
The cycles of the infinity of desire | EoS | |
And the mystique that made an unrealised world | ||
Wider than the known and closer than the unknown | ||
In which hunt for ever the hounds of mind and life, | ||
170 | Tempted a deep dissatisfied urge within | |
To long for the unfulfilled and ever far | ||
And make this life upon a limiting earth | ||
A climb towards summits vanishing in the void, | ||
A search for the glory of the impossible. | ||
(S 46) | ||
175 | It dreamed of that which never has been known, | |
It grasped at that which never has been won, | ||
It chased into an Elysian memory | ||
The charms that flee from the heart’s soon lost delight; | ||
It dared the force that slays, the joys that hurt, | ||
180 | The imaged shape of unaccomplished things | |
And the summons to a Circean transmuting dance | ||
And passion’s tenancy of the courts of love | ||
And the wild Beast’s ramp and romp with Beauty and Life. | ||
(S 47) | ||
It brought its cry and surge of opposite powers, | ||
185 | Its moments of the touch of luminous planes, | |
Its flame-ascensions and sky-pitched vast attempts, | ||
Its fiery towers of dream built on the winds, | ||
Its sinkings towards the darkness and the abyss, | ||
Its honey of tenderness, its sharp wine of hate, | ||
190 | Its changes of sun and cloud, of laughter and tears, | |
Its bottomless danger-pits and swallowing gulfs, | ||
Its fear and joy and ecstasy and despair, | ||
Its occult wizardries, its simple lines | ||
And great communions and uplifting moves, | ||
195 | Its faith in heaven, its intercourse with hell. | |
(S 48) | ||
These powers were not blunt with the dead weight of earth, | ||
They gave ambrosia’s taste and poison’s sting. | ||
(S 49) | ||
There was an ardour in the gaze of Life | ||
That saw heaven blue in the grey air of Night: | ||
200 | The impulses godward soared on passion’s wings. | |
(S 50) | ||
Mind’s quick-paced thoughts floated from their high necks, | ||
A glowing splendour as of an irised mane, | ||
A parure of pure intuition’s light; | ||
Its flame-foot gallop they could imitate: | ||
205 | Mind’s voices mimicked inspiration’s stress, | |
Its ictus of infallibility, | ||
Its speed and lightning heaven-leap of the Gods. | ||
(S 51) | ||
A trenchant blade that shore the nets of doubt, | EoS | |
Its sword of discernment seemed almost divine. | ||
(S 52) | ||
210 | Yet all that knowledge was a borrowed sun’s; | |
The forms that came were not heaven’s native births: | ||
An inner voice could speak the unreal’s Word; | ||
Its puissance dangerous and absolute | ||
Could mingle poison with the wine of God. | ||
(S 53) | ||
215 | On these high shining backs falsehood could ride; | EoS |
Truth lay with delight in error’s passionate arms | ||
Gliding downstream in a blithe gilded barge: | ||
She edged her ray with a magnificent lie. | ||
(S 54) | ||
Here in Life’s nether realms all contraries meet; | ||
220 | Truth stares and does her works with bandaged eyes | |
And Ignorance is Wisdom’s patron here: | ||
Those galloping hooves in their enthusiast speed | ||
Could bear to a dangerous intermediate zone | ||
Where Death walks wearing a robe of deathless Life. | ||
(S 55) | ||
225 | Or they enter the valley of the wandering Gleam | EoS |
Whence, captives or victims of the specious Ray, | ||
Souls trapped in that region never can escape. | ||
(S 56) | ||
Agents, not masters, they serve Life’s desires | ||
Toiling for ever in the snare of Time. | ||
(S 57) | ||
230 | Their bodies born out of some Nihil’s womb | |
Ensnare the spirit in the moment’s dreams, | ||
Then perish vomiting the immortal soul | ||
Out of Matter’s belly into the sink of Nought. | ||
(S 58) | ||
Yet some uncaught, unslain, can warily pass | EoS | |
235 | Carrying Truth’s image in the sheltered heart, | |
Pluck Knowledge out of error’s screening grip, | ||
Break paths through the blind walls of little self, | ||
Then travel on to reach a greater life. | ||
(S 59) | ||
All this streamed past her and seemed to her vision’s sight | ||
240 | As if around a high and voiceless isle | |
A clamour of waters from far unknown hills | ||
Swallowed its narrow banks in crowding waves | ||
And made a hungry world of white wild foam: | ||
Hastening, a dragon with a million feet, | ||
245 | Its foam and cry a drunken giant’s din, | |
Tossing a mane of Darkness into God’s sky, | ||
It ebbed receding into a distant roar. | ||
(S 60) | ||
Then smiled again a large and tranquil air: | ||
Blue heaven, green earth, partners of Beauty’s reign, | ||
250 | Lived as of old, companions in happiness; | |
And in the world’s heart laughed the joy of life. | ||
(S 61) | ||
All now was still, the soil shone dry and pure. | EoS | |
(S 62) | ||
Through it all she moved not, plunged not in the vain waves. | ||
(S 63) | ||
Out of the vastness of the silent self | ||
255 | Life’s clamour fled; her spirit was mute and free. |
Book 7, Canto 3 – The Entry into the Inner Countries, Section 1Savitri Bhavan2022-01-18T23:37:41+00:00